Being Heavy, Saying Goodbye, Foob and so on....

Well mom asked me about going to a meeting on a 21 day detox and I said yes

So now I'm doing a 21 day detox:

Check it out :Standard Purification Process

I'm desperate to lose this cancer weight 

The program seems simple enough and the supplements are whole food- the hard part will be doing it.

And speaking of weight and body image issues  

Have you seen this article-

Younger Breast Cancer Patients Have More Adverse Quality of Life Issues:

http://www.cancernetwork.com/breast-cancer/content/article/10165/2021313

AMEN AMEN!

I had 2 doctor appointments at Sloan for my 6 month blood test and a 1 year radiologist checkup.  As time passes and I deal with anxiety and all that crap my foob comes to mind.  I realize how different it is not having a real breast and at times I REALLY don't like it.  Most docs don't say anything about it- like it's just another foob, but there is a person attached to it.  Doctors are wonderful people and they shouldn't have to worry about my state of mind or how I'm dealing with being a woman with a foob- that's my problem and everyone has challenges.  BUT when a doc does recognize that 1. that foob looks nothing like a breast and 2. she may feel bad about it and not know that there is help out there- it makes a world of difference.

Dr. Powell my radiologist at Sloan is just that sort of doctor.  He always noticed me as a person.  He always told of things that could happen down the road and he spoke to me about my mobility and arm stretching.  At my last appointment he kindly asked about my implant and who did it.  He then asked if I was happy with it and asked if I use something else.  We laughed about the whole nipple thing and I told me I wasn't ready to do anything more.  He understood and told me that yes I can go back and do some tweaking and such.  The fact that he acknowledged the food was huge for me.  I had 4 different breast exams by 4 different docs that day at Sloan and only 1 spoke of my breasts.  How weird is that?  It took a lot for me to find the courage to ask my plastic surgeon about the size difference in my breasts and he did then tell me about getting fitted for an insert- which I didn't even think they had- I mean half and quarter size falsies to finish off my implant.....who would think? 

Another thing not mentioned is the weight gain thing- I know they know, but they don't say anything about it.  And it's huge to be over weight after not being over weight.  I'm 20 pounds heavier than I was before cancer and 20 pounds on a 4'11 girl is huge!  I'm at the point where I will do anything not be this heavy, but it's seeming impossible to lose.  I don't know what it is that made me heavier and know one tells you.  And then there is the Tamoxifen- and no more periods- I'm not sure what the heck is going on hormonally in my body which could have something to do with my weight issue.  Oh well I need to do more research on hormones, thyroid function and lipo....OK I'm not that desperate.

Well I do have to say the nurse at Powell's office did talk frank with me about the weight gain.

I'm hoping the detox will help jump start or reset something in this round little body.

All in all I'm just so glad to alive and SO grateful to ALL my doctors and my life is so much more important that a set of boobs :)

Dr. Powell was able to release me from his roster of patients This is great but sad too- he was my favorite! 

He told me I'm welcome to come in and see him with anything- how nice   

I will miss him