October is ending..........

I have a love/hate with October- it was when I was diagnosised which is good, but all the breast talk sometimes hurts.  Some days I just wanna run away and in October it's EVERYWHERE.
All in all it's a good thing- because women have got to be made aware!
I really hope every girl out there gets the info to get them self fitted for their insert.  Even if you are reconstructed you may need an insert.

One of the best days of my life was getting my insert.  I was just stuffing my bra with my "fluff".  When I put that bra on for the first time with my insert in it and could see that it looked like I had breast, I wanted to cry.  I was SO happy I could almost imagine that I was whole again.  Believe me I know it sounds weird saying "whole again", I mean physically whole.  It's not SO important, but I will always be a girl and my breasts will always be special to me.

On that 1st visit I had to Klemmnt Orthopaedic (607-770-4400),  Shiela had given me my 1st amoena pin- it was designed by a fellow survivor.  Every year they make a pin created by a survivor.  I stopped in to say HI to Shiela last week.  She came up front with a huge smile and we hugged and she grabbed my arm and she said, "It's Breast Cancer Awareness and I have something for you".  Well I got my 2nd pin.  It was so nice to see her and it got me to thinking that I'm probably coming up on getting a couple new bras.  I have very good insurance and they allow me so many bras a year and an insert about every 2 years.  You really need to get to an expert because they can help you with all that and even check on what your insurance company offers.  SO what I'm getting at is that if you do your fittings in October there is a good chance you will get your pin too.
I love Shiela for all the help - I had no idea of such a service.  She really did help me get whole again.

On another note I found a great organization-
Check out this mission statement:
Our vision is to change the way we as a society view health and wellness. We strive to promote healing by empowering survivors to become “THRIVERS”.  We lead by example and teach the world that adopting a healthy lifestyle  benefits those effected by cancer and  prevents the disease process that leads to the formation of breast cancer. We provide nutritional counseling, weight management, exercise training, meditation, guided imagery, Reiki, massage, reflexology, acupuncture and other holistic therapies  that are  essential to overall wellness.
  love it!- go to the website HERE

Oh and it's getting cold out foobers and hats hats hats...........LOVE HATS!  I don't know what I would have done during chemo without hats!!!!!!

I like the movie Salt and I really think if I was wearing wigs again I may have to try some of Angelina Jolie's hat looks from the movie:

I LOVE this one

How about this?

Then there is this one where NO hair needed

She's just too darn pretty

I thought some of these hats were nice

Northface

35.00

Zappos

 Neff

20.00

Zappos

Goorin Brothers

35.00

Zappos

  

FIVE

Tonight Oct. 10th at 9 on Lifetime

Well a couple of dates came and went

Sept 24th- the day the doc found my tumor
Sept 29th- my 1st mamo and when the word cancer was used to describe what it showed
These 2 happened in 09

Sept 28th -2010- my Survival Inspiration passed on to heaven- Sweet Betty

And on Oct 6th this 2011 it will be my 2 year mark!  Yeah

I'm still scared at times, but it's gotten better.  One thing that still scares me is doing any walks that are for just breast cancer....they still scare me.  I wish I wasn't like that, but I am.  I was wondering what would Betty tell me and then the other day I get an email from Betty's daughter!  I told her what I thought Betty would say and she said I pretty much nailed it.  Betty would probably say, "You need to go on with your life, and if you don't want to do it don't."  Then she would probably add in "Maybe next year you'll want to go and you can go with your husband, son or a friend".  What good advice.  I really do want to do my part to raise money to help really cure this horrible cancer.  After realizing that there are women out there being tested for the gene (that can carry breast/ovarian cancer) and knowing they have daughters- IT HIT me!  Daughters, Baby Girls they need us.  I don't have a daughter, but I do have a niece and many friends with beautiful daughters and cousins and so on.  I'm going to try and put together a team for the Susan G Koman 2012.  I really was unsure, but how can I not help.  It's the woman who went before me who took the experimental drugs, walked the walks, shared their stories, that today save my life- I need to give back.  I really don't want any girl to go through what I went through.    

I am SO going to celebrate my October 6th because I earned every minute of those 2 years.  The pain that we sometimes carry everyday is horrible.  We fight this disease all time in our heads - it doesn't matter where we are who we are with it can creep in at any time.  My life has forever been changed by this disgusting disease.

October a month I loved for Halloween is very different for me now.  I had my mastectomy a couple days before Halloween- I took dressing up to a whole new level. lol.   October in general was just a hard month that 2009.  I find out AND it's Breast Cancer Awareness- way to shove it right down my throat.

The best way we thrive from it is the support of other women who battled ahead of us, for they truly know the suffering that goes on.  And the newly diagnosed knows exactly what the survivor went through; we cling to each other like sisters and move on.

God Bless my SUPER SPECIAL GIRLS:

Carol

Missy

Vicki

Barbara

Betty

   Liz   

Each one carried a piece of the puzzle that is making my Survival!